I won’t lie. I’m having a hard time right now. This year Noah is spending the entire Thanksgiving weekend with his mom, which means I won’t get to see him until Sunday. Three and a half days without my little man…
Three and a half days without getting to hear his squeaking voice. Three and a half days without playing “shoot the lions”. Three and a half days without hugs, tackles, or kisses. Three and a half days without silly songs, snuggles, or story time. Three and a half days missing the best part of my life.
Today is Thanksgiving. I’m thankful for a lot of things. It is usually hard to get through Thanksgiving Day without dropping to my knees in gratitude for everything beautiful and wonderful in my life. Today it will just be hard to get through the day. Today I’m having a hard time focusing on anything else I’m grateful for at all. It’s amazing how much having him there makes everything beautiful. When he’s gone, so is the reason I do everything I do.
The holidays without my kid… It just isn’t right. Him being gone always makes me realize just how thankful I am for him. For his laughter. For his frustration. For every emotion that he ever shows.
I did take him bowling last night with my family. It was a lot of fun. My brother Eric, who is a pretty damn amazing photographer over in England (www.espphotographic.com), snapped some photos of us. Since I’m having a hard time writing anything worthwhile today, I’ll just share those. Going through them is something that is making me happy right now, which is nice.
Anyway… sorry to be such a Debbie Downer today of all days. I’m going to go finish making the Frog Eye Salad, and then maybe I’ll work on my annual list of everything else I’m thankful for. That should pull me out of this little funk. As you were.
Dan Pearce, Single Dad Not With His Kid On Thanksgiving
PS, How do you other parents keep from getting down when you don’t get to have your kids there for something special?