“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle.” ~Philo of Alexandria

After 21 years of self-destructive inner-battles, I finally admitted my biggest secret to myself and to the rest of the world. That day, and the day my son was born, were the two most incredible and wonderful days of my life.

Here on Single Dad Laughing, I started what I call “The Truth Box.” I asked you all to anonymously share a difficult secret that you’ve never told anyone. There were only two sections to fill out on the form. “What everyone thinks is true,” and “what actually is true.” More than six thousand secrets were shared. Every month I try and share 30 of them here. Completely random and exactly as they came in.

These truths aren’t meant to entertain. They aren’t meant to bring us down, either. They’re just an incredible and poignant (though sometimes heavy) reminder that we all are fighting our own great battles.

30 (Completely Anonymous) Truth Box Confessions

(Click or tap each to see the other half of the confession.)

1 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

That I am a strong single mom who does what needs to be done to live an emotionally healthy life, no matter how hard it is.

What actually is true:

I want to die. My son is almost out of high school and very independent. He doesn't need me any more so why stay here and hurt? My family and friends will get over it.

2 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I am a happy single mom.

What actually is true:

I have been married twice. I am embarrassed of my track record and I don’t think that I will ever get that happily ever after. I am not even sure that I deserve it.

3 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

There was an armed robbery at my friend's work. She's fine.

What actually is true:

I'd planned to stop by that night to visit & let my Dad talk me out of it last minute. If I gone, maybe she wouldn't have been raped.

4 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

what my now 18 y old niece thinks is true: the woman raising her is her birthmother

What actually is true:

her birthmother took off when she was one. her step-mom married her dad when she was 3. Thats why theres no baby pictures of her anywhere

5 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I love being a mom, it's a dream come true.

What actually is true:

My son's birth marked the beginning of a downward emotional/mental spiral, and I often wonder what I was thinking, having kids. I love him, but hate what I've become.

6 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I'm a typical tax accountant at a conservative CPA firm.

What actually is true:

My passion in life is my 10-year hobby of bellydance. I teach and perform regularly, and I'm terrified that my co-workers or clients will eventually find out.

7 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

Everyone thinks I'm an organized, motivated sahm mom and wife.

What actually is true:

My anxiety is so bad I can't even answer the phone. My house is an embarrassing disaster and I can't keep things organized, stay motivated or remember things.

8 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

My husband and I don't see eye to eye on political issues, but a strong marriage can overcome that.

What actually is true:

I can't even talk to the man anymore. He's a right wing, capitalist extremist and I can't stand his love of money over empathy for people!

9 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I cry in class because I can't handle being criticized

What actually is true:

I think about my mom's recent death everyday, every hour. Most of the time, I am not even mentally present in class.

10 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I have no problem being an on call/last minute sitter for my niece who had a baby 6 months ago.

What actually is true:

I love my niece and great niece but I also have kids and get so frustrated when she goes on and on about needing a break. I haven't had one in years!

11 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

That I don't need anyone, family or friends.

What actually is true:

I'm so alone, I miss my family everyday, and want nothing more than to be close again with my family.

12 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

That my pregnancy was an accident and a huge mistake.

What actually is true:

I think in the back of my mind, it was intentional. I needed something to save me from my drug addiction. My son saved my life. I'v been sober 5 years now.

13 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

That I am struggling with a phobia of driving but working on it through counseling, meds and religion. One day I will drive, I have 3 kids, I have to!

What actually is true:

I love Jesus, but he won't really take the wheel! I have PTSD from being sexually and physically abused for most of my life. This is how it manifests itself. Effin hate it!

14 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

I have made great strides with my mental illness, and am on the road to recovery

What actually is true:

I'm doing great, but i live in fear of relapsing at any moment! That this will only last a few months, and I will have to start over... AGAIN!

15 of 30

What everyone thinks is true:

That I love my one & only sister, but I do not agree w/ her religion or lifestyle.

What actually is true:

That's all true but she's a missionary & I secretly envy her for doing what she loves. I wish I could trade places w/ her.

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